I like him, but I always feel that sex isn't satisfying enough. I want to slowly confirm our love through kissing or get lost in intense pleasure together, but he always says 'don't move, I'm about to come' and it's over in an instant. That's why I envy AVs, where actresses orgasm repeatedly on screen. It makes me think that here, I can finally be satisfied, so I went ahead and applied. The male actor said, 'You're intense, so make sure you're wet first,' and made me masturbate while being watched. It was embarrassing but exciting, and the feeling of being stirred inside after such a long time almost drove me crazy. Isn't this called frottage? Rubbing the male actor's penis against my genitals was incredibly exciting. I wanted him to hurry up and enter me, but when he actually tried, there was a lot of pressure and it hurt a bit. But when he hit deep inside, it felt amazing. Being thrust into hard and being able to move however I wanted on top—it had been so long since I'd experienced sex like this, and it made me incredibly happy. My only concern is my voice training students. Many of the male students are tech-savvy, and if they find out... what should I do? After such intense pleasure, if someone says 'I'll do you roughly?' I might just go along with it. Because I don't want to stop feeling this good.
